work has been soo boring lately!! i have sold nothing in the past 4 or 5 days and im beginning to get a little worried... oh well! i am making a large purchase on thursday, my first real designer handbag!! I am SUPER excited!! i've been watching this one bag since i started with Valentino and it is on sale so im going to just do it! so i had a conversation with 'new guy' saturday night...and let me toell you, it was not pretty. i finally got up enough courage to tell him how i felt about the way he treadted me after he sent me a random text asking me if we could talk! the nerve!! so i told him that he was the same person he was 4 years ago and the fact that he had issues was not my problem. he kept saying he was sorry and stuff but i told him that it wasnt my problem! ha! stick that in your pipe and smoke it! haha! anyways...not much going on here just boring old work and packing up my apartment!

the past two days....

so Ive been away for a few days...well not really a few days, only 1. a friend came to visit me and we went to the world of coca-cola! how fun was that!! i really thought it was going to be kinda corny, but i learned alot! and i am finally at peace with the situation i was in a few days. i gave him a piece of my mind this morning, but not in a bad way! i was just honest with him and i think he was kinda offended with what i had to say...who cares! i got it off my chest! thats all that matters! right?! well thats how i feel about it anyways.... so im moving into a new apartment on the 17th and i am SUPER excited! i cant wait! well i think im done for today! more to come...later!

response

So...I finnally got a respons from 'new guy' last night....he said that he was sorry for being an ass hole and not communicating with me and that i didnt do anything, that it was all him. he also said that he just valued other things too much right now and that its not fair to me. WTF? who does he think he is? im so over stupidity and immaturity. i have yet to respond to him and im not really sure if i will. i dont think he deserves ar reponse. on to my next topic...work is absolutely dredful! we are so dead that i have nothing better to do than broadcast my personal life on the internet! ha! well im actually going to go and try to do somethin productive today! wish me luck! and if anyone knows the significance of the number 813, please fill me in. later!

Where to begin

So I am new to this blogging thing but I felt I needed to create a way to let out all the things I'm feeling inside so here goes....

2009...WOW! I can't believe it. It feels like just yesterday I was a freshman in high school. So I've got this great job and this amazing apartment that I'm moving into on the 17th with the best room mate I could ask for but I cant for the life of me fell like i'm in the right place. Dont get me wrong, i love the place im in right now, but something seems to be missing and i cant figure out what it is. I was in a relationship with someone who i thought was great, but turned out that we were better off as friends. i am so greatful to have him in my life as a good friend now. i began a new relationship with another guy who had been chasing after me for almost 8 months. The day after my ex and i decided to be 'friends' i started seeing the new guy and things were going great! It only lasted for a month but during that time i grew very fond of him and began to let my guard down, which i rarely do with guys. so about 3 weeks into the relationship he expressed to me that he wanted to be exclusive and that he wasn't seeing other ppl so natureally i agreed and we were 'official'. i was starting to like the idea of having a 'boyfriend' and he made me feel good so i let my guard down even more, and new years day he just drops off the face of the earth. he wont return my phone calls or text messages...i dont get it. i mean i thought things were going good and then just poof, he is gone. the thing is that i know i did nothing wrong. what i dont get is why he wont be man enough to atleast pick up the phone and say 'hey this isnt working for me' or something. so it has been 5 days since i last spoke to him so i think im safe to say that we are over...i think im going to chalk this one up to a bad judgement call. thanks to my friends and family i have now realized that i a so much better than that and i dont deserve to be treated that way. i will find a man one day who will love me unconditionally and not ignore my phone calls and want to spend time with me! now when i will find that GOD only knows and i am trusting him to guide me along the right path and i cant wait to see what he has in store for 2009!