Where to begin

So I am new to this blogging thing but I felt I needed to create a way to let out all the things I'm feeling inside so here goes....

2009...WOW! I can't believe it. It feels like just yesterday I was a freshman in high school. So I've got this great job and this amazing apartment that I'm moving into on the 17th with the best room mate I could ask for but I cant for the life of me fell like i'm in the right place. Dont get me wrong, i love the place im in right now, but something seems to be missing and i cant figure out what it is. I was in a relationship with someone who i thought was great, but turned out that we were better off as friends. i am so greatful to have him in my life as a good friend now. i began a new relationship with another guy who had been chasing after me for almost 8 months. The day after my ex and i decided to be 'friends' i started seeing the new guy and things were going great! It only lasted for a month but during that time i grew very fond of him and began to let my guard down, which i rarely do with guys. so about 3 weeks into the relationship he expressed to me that he wanted to be exclusive and that he wasn't seeing other ppl so natureally i agreed and we were 'official'. i was starting to like the idea of having a 'boyfriend' and he made me feel good so i let my guard down even more, and new years day he just drops off the face of the earth. he wont return my phone calls or text messages...i dont get it. i mean i thought things were going good and then just poof, he is gone. the thing is that i know i did nothing wrong. what i dont get is why he wont be man enough to atleast pick up the phone and say 'hey this isnt working for me' or something. so it has been 5 days since i last spoke to him so i think im safe to say that we are over...i think im going to chalk this one up to a bad judgement call. thanks to my friends and family i have now realized that i a so much better than that and i dont deserve to be treated that way. i will find a man one day who will love me unconditionally and not ignore my phone calls and want to spend time with me! now when i will find that GOD only knows and i am trusting him to guide me along the right path and i cant wait to see what he has in store for 2009!