Its Been A While

So its been about a month since I have posted anything. I have just been so busy with work and life, not that anything interesting has happened to me or anything like that :) I feel as if I am falling into a hole of lonliness and its really starting to get me down. Almost all of my friends, and now even my room mate, are in derious relationships or married with children. I am beginning to feel left out of this trend and it doesn't help it when my family makes comments to my father along the lines of 'oh Whit your going to be next' and then they turn to look at me. I want to have kids someday but I guess I have to find someone to have them with first right? And still there is this guy, who will remain name less, that I can't get out of my head. I think about him alot, but mostly only after I have seen him which is not very often.... but it takes soo long for me to get back comfortable with not being with him after I have seen him and I dont know how to get past that. I have this theory that in the future he will 'swallow his pride' but right now it only hurts. Not to mention that Valentine's Day is right around the corner, which is possible the most annoying holiday there is. I hate feeling like this but I just can't seem to stop being so negative. 'Nameless' and I had a conversation this past weekend about my negativity and its not exactly what I say but how I say it so I am doing my best to stop and thing before I speak but goodness it is really hard. If anyone has any advice on how to not be so lonely, I am open to suggestions. I have tried surrounding myself with friends and going out/hanging out but it never seems to work. I always wake up feeling empty. Maybe I should see a doctor? Along with my feeling lonely, work hasn't been that great lately. The economy is really bad right now and in retail, that is not good. The kind of customer that I deal with hasn't been effected too terribly bad but the state of recession that we are in right now, but what has effected them is the fact that they can no longer live off of their dividends and intrest from the stock. Hopefully they will rebound quicker than the rest of us :) If not, I will be out of a job. That would be really sad. I would also like anyone who is reading this to say a quick prayer fot the recovery of my boss' father. He had major heart surgery today. Thank you.